Why do we have to go through periods where we feel all alone, forgotten, rejected, misunderstood? I wish I had the answer to not make these times happen but I do believe this is why. We go thru times of separation so that when we are on the beam and feeling loved and centered we remember to help others who may not feel so together. My problem is 99% in my mind so I constantly need to surround myself with people who think like me so we can strengthen the power of God to help us maintain our spiritual condition another day. Sometimes I fall short, sometimes I say the wrong thing, sometimes I try to control but 99% of my intentions are pure.
I have realized a lot this year. Sometimes I still look for validation from the wrong people. Those who cannot or will not give it to me. I am often that little girl trying to fit into the grown women circle and forgetting the only validation and approval I need is from my kids, husband, and God. Last night my daughter said “Mom you are beautiful. You are always helping someone.” I am not going to lie my eyes welled with tears and I thought at least she understands me and my heart. She gets that joy for me is helping a friend or sitting down talking about our successes and or our failures. Showing up and asking how eachother is over coffee. Listening if they are mad about something but being there for one another even in the times of arguments or hurt feelings conflict can be walked through if we show up for eachother and walk thru it together not just avoid it.
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