The comfort ZONE-Oh no

A few weeks ago I took a big giant leap and went away for the first time in many years by myself!  Meaning no husband or kids just me, myself and I!

Getting to the day of the yoga trip wasn’t easy the internal dialogue that followed after  pushing the purchase button on this mommy getaway was painful.  I purchased the yoga weekend in August and it didn’t happen until November.  So needless to say I had a few months to worry, contemplate and almost tell myself I didn’t need this getaway.  Can anyone relate?  The hurricane happened and hit the keys pretty bad so there was some fear of the location, then some about not knowing any of the ladies that well, except one.  I also had guilt about the kids, interesting enough not about leaving my husband because I knew he’d do fine.  My littlest daughter has been having sleep awakenings and I’m the only one who calms her down. My mind says “well so and so never leaves their kids so I shouldn’t” or “Am I a bad mom for needing downtime” or “My husband works all week and now he has to handle the kids too solo”.

About a month after the hurricane I texted my friend who got me into the weekend and tried to backout.  I told her I didn’t need or want to leave them now and the hurricane kind of spooked me etc. she said “I think you need it and It’s going to be a lot of fun”. Then I swang the other way about a month before sooo eager and excited I wanted to run to the yoga weekend right away.  Because I’m the type of person that if I say I’m going to do something lets just hurry this up already and do it:)  I’m working hard at being present and mindfulness but most of my speeds are fast.

Fast forward to the day of leaving -panic sets in a little but I was filled with mostly excitement.  What will the cottages look like?  HOw much yoga will we do?  Will I have time to just “Be Still”.  As we got on the highway I forgot how fun roadtrips were with just a friend.  We gabbed and gabbed and 4 1/2 hours flew by.

I got to the weekend nervous, unsure and less than confident.  I left empowered, peaceful and secure.  Firsts-yoga on the dock, sunrise and sunset yoga, yoga in a tiki, snack size Havarti-cheese I now have to have it in the fridge, Mrs. Mac’s hashbrown casserole-OMG soooo good, making new friends one who had completed several marathons who told me I’m not allowed to say “I’ve only done one marathon”-she said “Damn girl you did a marathon, be proud!”  So I guess I needed the trip and you know what?  I think I will be going back again!

Take the risk, leave the kids, take the class, buy the shoes, eat the cake, life is full of amazing moments if we allow ourselves the ability to step outside of the dreaded “comfort zone”.