Hi!! I’ve had an emotional few months and realized I have not been blogging much so here goes. We moved and are still trying to sell our other house. Each day a slew of emotions goes back/forth in my head -“Was it the right decision”, “What if I want to move back”,” What if it doesn’t sell?”, “What if we new house has more upkeep?”, “How do I know this is gods will?” Now we have to build another pool is that the right decision, “Will we get our money back from other place?”
Today I stopped by the old house because we were having an open house and I wanted to share some info with the agent. They messed time up and I was infuriated because at my open houses signs were up on time, etc. how dare they, I even called and gave them a bit of my mind. Luckily, I have a program that when I realize I am wrong I can correct it so later that day I did. But I am feeling attached to the outcome, attached to the house, control is running rampant. I’m angry and irritated and yes having some financial insecurity although I know god takes care of that. There I said it I am overwhelmed, I haven’t been doing much for me I have been taking care of 2 houses and kids and dogs but what have I done for me lately? So today I went to get a massage at a new place that ironically has a meditation class that I have been looking for. So I guess God gave me a rather large God wink today and said Let Go and Let me and the realtor handle things. Ok I get it but now lets see how long it takes me to release the reins fully…..ahhh the joys of being an alcoholic! Our defects often come back with a vengeance during times of stress. Please God I know you want us right where we are even if I don’t fully understand your will please find the perfect person for our house.
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